I can't sleep. I can't stop crying. I can't believe you're almost 2.
Mommy drops you off everyday at 'school' and I convince myself that you really like going there. You really like all of your friends and you have fun. You'd just be bored with me.
But you're almost 2.
Why am I working full time. Is it worth it? I'm tired by the time I get home. I don't take you to do anything exciting on the way home. No swimming, no dance class, no music, no sports. I've got supper to cook and then I want to relax and you go to bed by 8. You don't get to see your friends during the week because it's just too busy.
Is it worth it?
I really like working. I love what I do, but I'm seeing time slip away. Is there even another option?
Pavel, don't be mad at mommy okay? I'm trying to do my best. I'll figure it out, I promise.
Guilt, please let me sleep.
I love you my little P.